He who believes in the Son has eternal life; but he who does not obey the Son will not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him. (Jesus) in Jn 3:36
Saved by grace and faith in Jesus Christ, it takes the power of the Holy spirit to finally convince you about this truth. It might not make any sense for you but what if it is true? Do not loose eternity for an unturned stone, ask God, “God if you are there reveal yourself to me in a way that my limited mind can understand and appreciate.” God promised in His Word that He will reveal himself to all those who will seek Him with an open and sincere heart. It’s up to you my friend, I care enough to tell you about it but I cannot force you to believe it.